Recently KiD CuDi shared a message on social media to his fans about his struggle with depression. I thought I would write something back.
First, thank you for always being so open and vulnerable with your fans. It’s brave to share your internal struggles with the world when you could easily do so privately. Black and brown folks have a hard time understanding their anxiety and depression and often try and self-diagnose. Many of us push our mental health to the side without talking to others or seeking the necessary help. We often forget to take a critical look at our friends and family and fail to realize that many of them may suffer from some form of mental illness. Hopefully, your message gives people the courage to share and take care of their struggle.
Second, I want to thank you, again, for knowing when to take care of yourself. Unfortunately, self-care isn’t a high priority for many people. It’s easy to find work or make commitments when attempting to hide from yourself.
Lastly, I want to thank you for Man On The Moon. I’ll never forget the first time my friend Robert came into my dad’s green Toyota Camry and played Day N Night. It was like nothing I ever heard before. I was intrigued and immediately found A KiD Named CuDi. I was even more impressed by your odd melodies, futuristic beats, and rapper/singer delivery. By the time I got to college I was a full fan. Your album was high on my list of most anticipated and I was deeply satisfied with what I heard. That album, along with a few others, colored my freshman year.
2009 at The University of Rhode Island was unimaginably fun, stressful and isolating… all at the same time. I was a struggling Computer Science major, I was living with two of my best friends and meeting more and more people. Socially, things were rapidly evolving. Academically, I was frustrated, uncertain and insecure. It was hard knowing how much I hated class and knowing how much I was struggling, while still being obligated to go. I remember walking to classes I loathed, classes that offered little support and no resources for a black kid from Providence, who wanted to make video games.
Songs like Solo Dolo, Alive, and My World made the walk to class a little easier. The sounds on that album allowed me to think through my feeling and get through a challenging year. Your uncertainty made me more comfortable in my own skin, helped me embrace my awkwardness and overcome my fear of failure.
I also must thank you for Man On The Moon II and Indicud for defining other moments in my life as well, times that were equally as hard and challenging… but different. Man On The Moon, though… is special. It was your introduction to the world and it came at the perfect time for me.
Thank you for being so open. Peace Mr. Rager.